Friday, December 3, 2010

Musings

Isn't everyone suppose to have a passion? You know, something they are good at and just love to do..
It seems like every has this except me. I have so many thing that I wish I could do.
So many things that seem like fun or even that I enjoy but aren't really good at. Misplaced desires I suppose.. Just wanting to find that little thing.

Can it be my daughter? I love doing things centered around her. I love playing with her, getting her dressed, feeding her, putting her to sleep, holding her. I know I can talk about her endlessly.

No. I don't think that counts.
Not sure what it is. I'll continue trying to find "my thing". Probably doesn't even make sense but if I figure it out I'll be sure to let you know.

Really I'm just rambling because it's my bedtime and I can't sleep.. Anxiety about going home. I'm so scared to go home cause what if I fail. What if I can't make it on my own. It's not like before. I have a precious little girl now. I can't just crash on people's couches and float around with no concerns..

Better try to sleep before I give myself an anxiety attack or something. Kidding.. Mostly.


Psalms 71
1 In you, LORD, I have taken refuge;
   let me never be put to shame.
2 In your righteousness, rescue me and deliver me;
   turn your ear to me and save me.
3 Be my rock of refuge,
   to which I can always go;

4 comments:

  1. My dear, if your child doesn't count as your passion…
    I don't know.
    She has to count.

    My children ARE my passion, and my ministry, and sometimes my cute little pains in the neck ; )

    Aside from that, I like to sew, I love it even, but it's not a passion. I had a short time when making scrapbooks was almost an obsession, but I got over it (you know, the 3 kids thing). What hasn't changed?
    The love for my child(ren)
    And I really don't think it ever will.

    I'm happy to say they're my passion <3

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  2. Kate- Cooking and I have a love hate relationship, lol.
    Yara- My goal is to get into sewing when I get back. I would love that. Just need to figure out that sewing machine of mine. :)

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